Full moon without the fancies...

Today is Emily's full moon. We were supposed to have a small party at home with family members but alas we have to forgo that. Emily and I are still in the hospital. Instead, I have ordered Ayamas gift packs for family, friends and colleagues to be distributed.  Emily doesn't have any fancy new clothes either, but shebisvwaering something new whic was bought earlier. I will make up for this when you are well again. Mummy will buy you pretty new dresses!

Last Friday, 20th April, Emily and I took a ride in an ambulance curtesy of Hosp Kajang to Gleneagles in Ampang. It was my 1st experience riding one and it would have been pretty exciting if it wasn't for the seriousness of the trip. We went there to get a Echocardiogram done on Emily's heart. We were the centre of attention in the clinic since we arrived in an ambulance and Emily was brought down on a stretcher inside an incubator! But for Emily it was sleep all the way! The result of the scan was more serious than I thought or hoped it would be :(. She has 1 hole between the atriums and the ventricles each! But the doctor is only concerned about the ventricles one, the term is Ventricle Septal Defect (VSD). It must be corrected by open heart surgery and should be before she is 6 months old. Now we are trying to get her bigger and stronger before we can operate on her. 

I have got many things to plan for. I am going back to work in month and I don't know who can take care of Emily when I go back to work. I might take extended leave but for how long? Then, there are the big kids. Apparently MIL had problem of her own and she cannot take care if them for now. So many headaches! Hubby asked me to quit job but there is no way we can get by with one person's salary. As I told a dear friend, God is really testing me,  but HE won't test me beyond what I can handle, I am sure.  God Almighty, have mercy on us. Guide and show us the way. Give us strength, deepen our faith and love for YOU and for each other as we travel on this difficult part of the journey of our lives. YOU must have your reasons for wanting us to go through it and we trust in YOU.  I pray for Emily's preparation, heart surgery and recovery happening within these few months ahead. I humbly ask you to pray for her too.