3rd Sept 2012: I did not sleep at all the night before, I tried but millions of thoughts were passing through my brain at the speed of light and I could feel the weight of it all between my brows. Guilt, regrets, scary thoughts, what I want to do in her remembrance, I don't know and so much more... I tried to imagine our Mother Mary's face so I can calm my mind, but it didn't worked. I think I didn't sleep at all. At 6.30 am, I got up and went to church for the 7 am daily Mass. That worked wonders, I felt better.
We went to register her death with JPN, it was completed by about 1.30pm. The Government Clinic nurse visited us for documents for their records. She was such a kind lady. I really appreciate the goodwill and kindness that I have witnessed in so many people be it in hospitals, clinics or any government agencies, etc. during these past months. I now have renewed faith in the goodness within people in general which I thought had disappeared from mankind.
A few of my colleagues and my hubby's visited at different times of the day. In the evening, we conducted the Day 3 prayers. By 10 pm, I was out cold. I managed a good 5 hours of sleep that night.
Emily, from where you are, watch over us. I don't want to ever forget you, I want to be transformed into a better Christian person because of you. Your life will not be in vain, I will make sure, with God's Grace, that I am better person because I had you in my life. I love you, my little Emily.
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