In Ever Loving Memory...

I have not finished my post that I was writing on Thursday, I just posted it half-finished just now. Today is 1st September 2012, Saturday. Today is a day I wished a hundred things could be different. I wished I had done things that I didn't, I wished I had been wiser, if only I knew...

1st September 2012, is by far the hardest day ever in my life. Today, my baby Emily stopped breathing in my arms. It's been a surreal day. I am still not completely in terms with the fact that I have lost her, my lovely princess Emily darling, for good. My brain is not thinking much, it's pretty empty now. Tired, my heart seems to have sunk very low at the moment.

My good Lord, please have mercy on her soul, bring and keep her with You in heaven. My Emily, mummy is sorry for bringing you to this world and causing you so much suffering for the short 5+ months of your life. We will never forget you, we will love you always and forever. We will meet again one day, I LOVE YOU, I AM SORRY.............